Life has been a ride. A very stressful ride. Full of bumps.
Sometimes, you just have to stop and remind yourself what you stand for. Stop and realise or even (re-)set your values. It´s important for the mind. The mind is the chief. If you can´t get the shit* in your head together, you don´t have anything together.
And that´s exactly where I am trapped in right now. In my head. Under the attack of various - uhm, mostly negative - feelings. Maybe I forgot how to be happy. How to be proud. I can still enjoy the littlest things, but in the end of the day, the negativity wins. The negative thoughts always own me.
I hate to feel like life is slipping throught my fingers and I am wasting time. I hate that it´s a fact. I have wasted so much time, so many opportunities, so many moments I will never get back. And I need to get back on. I really need to start being myself again. I need to stand up for myself.
I really didn´t come this far to only come this far.
Let´s end this rant with something I wish I could live up to - don´t ever be afraid to set a goal that scares you. It´s better to stumble chasing greatness than to fail at something mediocre.
*it´s my blog I can swear if I want to. Swearing is known as tension releaser. And sometimes, swearing can be acceptable and I suppose this was the case, because I have been trying really hard to talk like a girl, not like a sailor. (Not that a girl couldn´t be a sailor, but... gosh, this seriously got out of my hand)