June 18, 2016

Two a.m. thoughts

Life has been a ride. A very stressful ride. Full of bumps.

Sometimes, you just have to stop and remind yourself what you stand for. Stop and realise or even (re-)set your values. It´s important for the mind. The mind is the chief. If you can´t get the shit* in your head together, you don´t have anything together.

And that´s exactly where I am trapped in right now. In my head. Under the attack of various - uhm, mostly negative -  feelings. Maybe I forgot how to be happy. How to be proud. I can still enjoy the littlest things, but in the end of the day, the negativity wins. The negative thoughts always own me.

I hate to feel like life is slipping throught my fingers and I am wasting time. I hate that it´s a fact. I have wasted so much time, so many opportunities, so many moments I will never get back. And I need to get back on. I really need to start being myself again. I need to stand up for myself.

I really didn´t come this far to only come this far.

Let´s end this rant with something I wish I could live up to - don´t ever be afraid to set a goal that scares you. It´s better to stumble chasing greatness than to fail at something mediocre. 

*it´s my blog I can swear if I want to. Swearing is known as tension releaser. And sometimes, swearing can be acceptable and I suppose this was the case, because I have been trying really hard to talk like a girl, not like a sailor. (Not that a girl couldn´t be a sailor, but... gosh, this seriously got out of  my hand)

April 07, 2015

Documentary: Of Miracles and Men

Let's face the truth, I quote Herb Brooks and the movie Miracle way too much. However, that (even though it's a bit weird) doesn't make me love the good 'ol Soviet hockey any less. Hands down, Tretiak and Myshkin are the best goalie pair of all times and boys like Fetisov or Kharlamov are hockey players who made history and nobody could take it away from them. Ever.



When somebody posted a link to ESPN's 30 for 30 documentary called 'Of Miracles and Men', I didn't hesitate to click the link. And after that, I didn't really care about the world for the next 103 minutes. 

The first part of the documentary shows the (not really all flashy) beginnings of players, along with the story of Anatoli Tarasov, one of the most important Russian coaches during the Soviet area. Then it moves on onto the first Canada-USSR games and - obviously - the Lake Placid Olympics in 1980.

Viasechslav Fetisov (I love how they only call him familiarly 'Slava') is re-visiting the Olympic arena with his daughter and I won't even try to hide that I had shed a tear (or two) during that part.  Then you get an inside look to the USA-USSR game with original commentary and footage.

Last part of the documentary is focused on Fetisov trying to play in the NHL... with all the struggles and obstacles because back in 1980s it was nothing but politics... and (because even sports documentaries need happy endings) it all ends as Slava hoists the Cup on the Red Square.

PS: Is Garry Bettman immortal? I guess so.

My rating: 10/10

February 01, 2015

Fitness: January fitness, #30daysofyoga



Yesterday I successfully completed the 30 day yoga ''challenge'' let by lovely (and sometimes a little bit crazy.. in a good way!) Adriene from Yoga with Adriene. I had posted about it before I started, hoping it would help me not give up... and man, the start was tough. During the first two days/videos, I was getting up off the ground to look how far I was in the video literally like every 3 minutes... aka my typical yoga mindset (as I described in the article about me commiting to the challenge) - ''I hope this will be over soon''. 

On day 3, I probably twisted my back too far and my right shoulder blade was pain in the ass (and I'm not even going to censor this, I could barely move my arm)... and suprise suprise, day 4 was named 'Yoga's got your back'... Seriously?! 

However, this was probably the biggest struggle I had following the challenge, besides being discouraged by the lenght some of the videos had.. everything over 30 minutes seemed too long, not the pratice itself, but the feeling before it. Was I going to give up? Hell no. 

I've downloaded a timer app for my phone, so I didn't have to get up to check the video to know how many minutes of practise I had left. And I bought a mat. On day 28 of the challenge, but I still did. And I even woke up early a couple times to get the practise in before leaving on busy days and it felt awesome... doing yoga during sunrise, it doesn't get much better than that.

To be honest, it took me about 20 days to really get into it. After that, I didn't feel grumpy and I was doing the videos because I wanted to, not because I said I would. I was excited to do yoga. Me, the one who never finished a yoga video before without feeling discouraged. And to think that I did all the  30 workouts, circa 677 minutes - more than 11 hours of yoga in January? I'm super proud.

At first, I was not happy about day 30, because it encourages you to do a free-style practise, but it turned out as a lot of fun. As someone who's only following guides maybe I should start putting down my own workouts more often. 

Thank you, Adriene!

The only small little problem in the back of my head is that for most of January, this yoga challenge was the only thing I did workout-wise and I wanted to do much more, but now I've got a whole new month to fill up with workouts. 

January 02, 2015

Fitness: #30daysofyoga

I didn't really make any resolutions for this year, as I know it's all about myself and my mindset and the changed number in the calendar won't change my attitude, but I've stumbled across the thought of trying to find my way to yoga.

And boom, Adriene from Yoga with Adriene is starting a 30 days of yoga series today (January 2). I almost jumped off my chair when the introduction video (below) poped up in my subscription box - this is my chance. I've tried yoga many times and I was always full of all the feelings yoga should not give you - like impatience, sadness, almost up to the point of anger. I'm not sure if I've ever actually finished a yoga video all the way to the last minute. Yoga is just not my thing. However, I know the benefits of yoga and I really want to suck up this challenge and complete it. 


Aaand, since goals are always better with friends, I'd like to challenge you - as you're reading this - to participate in this challenge too. A little yoga has never killer nobody, right?

All of the videos will be up on Adriene's Youtube channel and it's all competely free. No excuses!

May 28, 2014

The story behind my blog's name

I wanted my blog name to briefly describe myself, so everybody knows who I am without reading a word from my posts and gets a hint of want to expect at the same time. It gets a bit twisted, but I am quite happy with what “brand“ I came up with.

'Heels' stands for my girly self. Even thought sometimes I'm not a girly-girl at all, I enjoy all the little pros and cons of being a girl. I love to wear high heels and I never leave the house without my nails painted. I also think the 'fitness/health' part of my blog belong to this category because to look good and feel good is mostly women's bussiness.

'Hockey' is... well, even if I never went to a hockey game ever again for the rest of my life, there would still be a bunch of years that I spent by watching hockey games, talking about games or being excited about games. That's just a part of my life that can't be erased. Not to mention that I plan my life around the hockey season schledule.

'History' was my favourite subject back at school and a topic that I'm really interested in. I used to read books about historical events, I watch historical documentaries, especially about WWII and from history, I also love the period of 18th century in Russia. 'History' in the name of this blog also represents the fact that I blog about my everyday life and every single step doesn't only affect the future, but also creates the past.

And I love the fact all three start with an H.

September 10, 2013

Life.

“Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all. It isn’t about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which girl or guy likes you. It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it’s about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life’s about.” — Nike Ad

April 22, 2012

Auf dem Weg

I think you could never go wrong with a few photos of the beautiful Tyrol scenery.
Enjoy!
(Innsbruck, Austria, August 2011)

April 15, 2012

Welcome!

Hi guys,
if you called me silly now, I could not say anything because I know I'm silly with founding a new blog (50th in my life, I guess?). I swear to God this is the very last one. When I started pisse-irriterende, I knew the name was probably not the best choice... who would remember that? However, I really liked it.. sadly, time has changed my point of view. When I was writing the about me section on pisse-irriterende, I realised that I actually lived by three Hs and that's where the name of this (new) blog comes from. Hope you like it and will remember it better than the previous one.

Thank you all for being patient with me!

Xo, Susanne